yeah yeah

2007-03-26T00:11:00.000-07:00

Quote of the day: "ALWAYS, begin with the End in mind :D"
Miss Yip said that about twenty thousand times during CME today ): So boring. Not even twenty years old and she's nagging like some old mama.

-guin.

Quote of the day: "Don't worry. God will forgive you."
Gahhhh...It must be the faeces in the rectum.

-mira.

Quote of the day: Mira sucks and everyone knows it :D

- dhash

2007-03-26T00:06:00.000-07:00

OMG SO MANY THINGS TO DO AH.
TODAY IM GOING TO KILL SOMEONE.

Basically, im forced to blog today, by people.
Cant believe they keep bombarding me with qns
about my blog. I mean, where can i even find the time?
That's why im typing this in class.
He would never figure out anyway.

See, Guin's staring at my words.
"OI" yeah yeah.

Okay i have a lot to buck up.
My amath, emath, physics and chem
and yeah, quoting Guin "Practically Everything".

I have to do something about it.
I must do something about it.
I should do something about it.
I will do something about it.
I'm going to read my Lime Magazine.

Hee hee hee? Hee hee hee.

I've my guardian angel, I don't need any other dreams.

2007-03-24T08:44:00.000-07:00

2007-01-19T05:36:00.000-08:00

I LOVE MY LOSER <3
She's the best person to talk to when i've been bottling up.

Today, today after school i was fuming but now i'm fine (:
Poor table. It has done no wrong.
And i admire aqilah for her courage and sincerity.
Not many would go back and apologise, i swear.
And it wasn't even her fault that the table toppled upside down
with zhong jie's properties inside.

You go, aqilah!

Right now, i dont know whether it's my place, but i'm trying to
get the class a little more bonded, and i dont know how.
I wanna try designed shirt. again. so far 2 of my designs were out.
total defence. total defence. what in the world.

and oh my goodness im being selfish.

2007-01-06T02:23:00.000-08:00

This is for the g1s who've put in all their efforts:

WE LOVE YOU MANY MANY!

Omg it was such a shock and this win has become a great start to kick off with the year!
I didnt wanna sleep to hold onto the moment but i was too tired (:
It was so heartwarming when our cheers were deafening and everyone's jumping for joy.
Sec ones enjoyed themselves very much. This batch of g1s are the most accomplished ones.
4 prizes , like that's whacked man! How cool!

And when we said "1G1 WE LOVE YOU!", they screamed as a class
"WE LOVE YOU TOO!" Cute, man!

And when i was perfecting their cheers before their performance i screamed at their faces
"If you dont believe in yourselves, dont even dream of winning first place"
And then after their performance, when the snrs and jrns were doing the three cheers,
I heard one of the sec ones saying to me,
"We believe in ourselves."

That's all i needed to hear from my little sisters of 1g1.
We're proud of you!

Tonight, i realised that i was wanted and appreciated really really.
I never realised that for fourteen years.
It's not like nobody told me that they appreciate me or that i have low self-esteem,
but sometimes people dont really mean what they say.
Or that when they say it, it's not like as if it's gonna really happen.
But now, it just felt like something so new. (:

And i love love love 2g1, i dont get it why we have to be seperated in sec 3.
I understand lah but the very thought of it is so unfair.
For a long time, 2g1 has always been together, it's like we dont really need anyone else.
Come sec 3 there are faces i really havent seen before althought they're my batch peers.
Which freaks me out. 3c3's fine. but 2g1's love.

So many 2g1's telling me that they wish we'll be together in the same class.
I feel the same way too.
But we'll always, always stay together come what may.

And the world is so beautiful tonight.

2007-01-01T08:08:00.000-08:00

This is to Jeremy, who went through the toughest time anyone could have imagined, by counting down with me to the end of my birthday err.. day.

WAY TO GO!
STAY IN SCHOOL, DONT DO DRUGS.

2007-01-01T07:21:00.001-08:00

This message was from Khaliesah:

this is something i wrote from the heart.
its not going to be great but i will just start.
we've always been just friends
just a hi and a bye
but now i feel
that there's a connection between you and i
we share the same childhood experiences.
we love the same songs.
we are both happy go lucky people.
but we too have our wrongs.
so now i just have to saythat i'm glad we got closer in someway
and on this very day
i'd just like to wish you a very happy birthday.

She tried sincerely.
That's what made it beautiful.
I love you lots, Khaliesah!!!

2007-01-01T07:21:00.000-08:00

This message was from Khaliesah:

this is something i wrote from the heart.its not going to be great but i will just start.
we've always been just friendsjust a hi and a byebut now i feelthat there's a connection between you and i
we share the same childhood experiences.we love the same songs.we are both happy go lucky people.but we too have our wrongs.
so now i just have to saythat i'm glad we got closer in somewayand on this very dayi'd just like to wish you a very happy birthday.

She tried sincerely.
That's what made it beautiful.
I love you lots, Khaliesah!!!

2007-01-01T06:09:00.000-08:00

A few more ticks till I hear the sound,
A symphony to the change of time;
But lets take this minute to recharge
What i know that's been mine.

This year I learnt aplenty,
Through joy and unwanted pain;
From different people from different corners,
And heres what ive gained:

Freedom equals trust
And trust means honesty
Honesty is linked with love
With that, comes loyalty.

No bond survives without sacrifice,
Sufferings promises a smile;
True friendship comes from sincerity,
We need that once in a while.

Misunderstandings takes you to an end
While independence helps you through
Short-changing adds to nothing
None knows best but you.

Never dream but make it happen,
Dont wait till its gone.
Cherish every single moment,
Like the melody of a song.

I grew stronger with every fall,
Making me who ive came to be.
But lets take a m inute to recharge;
Happy Birthday To Me.

2006 was a very beautiful year, i learnt so much.
That only means...2007 BRING IT ON.
This day , the weather was perfect, i feel fine.
I told my parents not to buy me anything at all - its my first time doing this.
I guess that since im growing up, i might as well be a little more independent.
Im saving money to buy what i want.
Funny, as i grow older, I feel younger and more refreshed.
When midnight came, i received about 14 messages of happy birthdays
and countless of happy new years. And to those 14, I really appreciate it
because i really didnt realise that much will come. Im touched, really.
But i have to say, the best love i received, other from my parents and 2 kisses from Dad,
was from, my friend, Gefrey.

They say there's no better gift than love and friendship.
This was what she wrote to me from the States:

It wasnt something that I thought was plausible
Words weren’t within my contemplation
Penning down a poem was far too a job of what I was not competent of
But I thought. After all it was for someone I valued immensely.
It wasnt about how I was going it put across
But rather of what I was going to put across.
Each word held its meaning right within its very own soul
And every single one was special in its own way.
And the reason beneath it, it was for my beloved friend.
Goners are gone out of my reality, but not out of my memory.
And this goner was a special one, the one I loved the most.
Of all the things I only ask for this Lord
Let her have a wonderful year ahead
With both success and failures but with failures that she can
Learn and nurture from. On this very special day of her own
Bless and shower her with all your love and blessing.
Have a wonderful birthday and a great year ahead.Happy birthday Love.

The very thought that she tried make our friendship more real.
The world needs more people like her. The message was signed with love
and there was a picture of both of us smiling together.
I love you, Gef!

These are the things that are connected one way or another to my birthdays..

And today,

I feel like a child.

And it doesnt matter anymore what happens before this day,

Because today,

I'm at peace with the world.

2006-12-28T05:49:00.000-08:00

I was bored because i couldn't find a poem for poverty for lit,
So instead of finding i decided to write one. But not about poverty.
HAHA!

My dying child

On bent knees, I placed my hands together,
Searching the heavens in the falling rain;
Why, God, is this the way of life?
Is this your way of ending pain?

Of a little soul who promised us joy,
When a thousand words cannot be said;
Yet you presented me, with much unfairness,
With a promise that was never made.

How could the world still spin?
When a infant will be taken this summer?
So I braced with a dying child of mine
For comes the start of our eternal slumber.

2006-12-28T05:08:00.000-08:00

Just swing, just swing and never look back,
Stretch your hands and take it all;
But as heaven's tears fell onto dirt,
She stops.
She knew what it's like to fall.

Unlike what she thought, the world had failed her,
A life with existence of a zone;
But even if nothing was meant for her,
She conquered with faith alone.

2006-12-25T20:03:00.000-08:00

The animes and mangas i grew up with:

The magical princess i was dying to be when i was 5,
Red Riding Hood Akazukin Cha Cha

Ahh yes, the man who talks fast without moving his mouth..
Speed Racer

Still, the best anime i've ever came across,
Cardcaptor Sakura

The first manga i've ever read. Nothing special but still,
Love For Venus

The one I'm currently on to. I think im beginning to like this one a lot.
Tsubasa RESERvoir of CHRoNiCLE

2006-12-25T19:47:00.000-08:00

3 relaxing days in Bedok makes me more sane (:
That's because i bought 2 volumes of Tsubasa!!
Yeaahhh baby i'm onto Tsubasa now. But seriously, the anime stinks.
Sakura's anime's the best!! Aww i wanna go comic spree with xuan.
And there's just so much books i wanna read.
I realised there's 2 more books from Ahern that i haven't got my hands on.
Plus For One More Day by Mitch Albom,
My Best Friend's Girl, My Godmother all these books I WANNA READ.

Well anyway, sec one registration wasn't bad at all! except for the last part i got bored.
So did Haslinda. G1's nice, i love my junior classes although sometimes err..
Well Aisyah, Has and i spotted some look and act alikes from that class.
Very much like the 2g1 we have now. Amazing how the school classifies us.
I'm a little worried about cheer - they only have 3 days and the first day
we cant do much, making the situation quite pathetic, really.
There's one thing that i'm hoping i'll get:

Please, god, make me a peer leader for 1G1. Please?

HA! Im gonna finish my math today and that'll be the end of homework.
Listen to that?
IM QUEEN OF THE WORLD!!!!!!!!
And im gonna buy 2 more Tsubasa books soon. This week. For my birthday.
With my own money. Don't wanna burden my parent.
Guess that since im growing up, i might as well be a little more independent.
So i'll save up to June to buy more books, then save up to Nov to buy more books.
Best plan i've thought of, yet. Though i'll be waiting quite a while, I think it's worth it.

Forget 1st of Jan. I'm still in 2006 (:

2006-12-19T01:13:00.000-08:00

This was something that happened yesterday.
I just need a place to have it out.

Family Roles

Time is passing and you're still not home.
The absence of mom too, makes me worry.
Something might happened. I didn't want to think.
So I sat on the couch, staring at my feet and wait.
Just wait.

Mother came back and I told her of my worry.
She smiled.
A tale she told about my father at work. A frown.
Not long, he came back; he looked just the same.
Smiling and carrying an infant in his arms.
Hugging him, I said hello and he beamed.
Excusing himself to talk to mom, I walked out of the room.
Fast, but not fast enough to hear:

Today is one of the worst office days of my life.

And this is the man who hid it all,
Just to give his children some faith.
This is the one who stood up for what he wanted,
Be brave and put his family before him.
He was the father who's a man of few words,
But gave us protection aplenty.

And this is me, the daughter of that man,
feeling his hardships throughout.
I closed the gate,
And locked the door;
And protect him from the world.

2006-12-19T00:56:00.000-08:00

O YAY! i love love love family days, man!

No nothing, just the 6 of us having the time of our lives together.

And watching our Misha progressing into an unbelievable cute infant.

Yes, i do believe in family love, i do! i do! I felt it anyway.

Avillion is womg. awesomeh! and my parents just cant stop praising them.

Ugh, never heard them praise so much about me, the sexy! I did batik painting!!

It's so preeeetty, really! It was my first time and it's already woah.

Maybe i'll post the pictures next time. HAHA! who's the best? ME!

And premium water chalet is so beautiful (I found the encouragement to bathe in the bathroom)

because it's so beautiful. i love the sunset. There was pink in the sky and for once,

I found the pink so beautiful. Amazing experience.

Then Farmosa came (my father's company's holiday getaway, eventually.

Who's the organiser?! I hate him.)

The condominium apartment, where we were suppose to stay in,

was HORRIBLE. And the curtains? IT BURRRRRRNNNNSSSSSS!

The rotan chair was disgusting and it was so bare!

It's a frightening thing to even sit on it, let alone sleep in the bed.

The air con flap had to be hold still by stuffing a cigarette box in between.

Dont get me started on toilet.

The bungalow wasn't any better either. There was no water in one toilet.

To sum it up:

The toilet couldn't flush.

The horror.

That's why we didnt stay there. So my father drove out to find another

hotel (we were the only ones with a car, considering we were from avillion)

and we took 3 hours to find a last minute hotel. Reinassance was the name.

The blanket was nice.

Altogether it was a successful holiday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MAMA!

Hope ayah's gift to you (avillion) was a beautiful one. duh.

2006-12-09T06:45:00.000-08:00

Dear Khaliesah,

Hahaha! Oh man i really did did did have a big shock that we'd be going to the same hotel, same date, same are. But yeah, everything went whacko when your parents decided to change the date. And now all our hopes gone to waste. We're both crushed but YANOW, i think everything will be alright. Like you said, it'll still be fun, with us two together but like i said, it doesnt mean no fun with just you and just me. Must promise me you'll have fun okay? Then we'll go share photos and memories when you and i get back to Singapore later. and who knows if i'll leave something behind, somewhere and then you'll find it HAHAHA! go to the beach! i'll go dig something, write a letter out of the hotell paper and bury it! TREASURE! i hope you're happier, knowing that i was there and you'll be there too. A date?! Call 1800-IM ON.

Dear Haslinda,
Cheer up, bud, get a very good rest everytime and please dont go worryinag about the blog. You know your rest more important than some blog. Let someone else do it. Dont ask me who will. Listen, you better get some break before sec 3 starts, or you're gonna regret it. Go into a circular room and find a corner to sit and chill (: Love you, always!

Dear Yuni,
Yeah, it's been a very very very long time, i didnt know what happened. And i hope you're doing fine, it doesnt seem as though you are. But maybe that's just me. I still havent forgotten what we shared last time, no no no (((: But seriously, i hope we'll be building a friendship, just like before. Slowly. Am not giving false hopes anymore. We're starting over, and that's just fine.

Dear Nikki,
OH MY GOD HOW COULD YOU MISS WATCHING SPIRIT?! i want the cd please? burn for me? Andddd then i'll love you (:

This night's not meant for many.
That's why i'm gonna punch the fan.

2006-11-29T06:25:00.000-08:00

This post is dedicated, especially to an amazing friend of mine,
you know who you are, wink wink!
mata sakit.

Yes anyway, if i could put it in words,
I wouldn't know exactly how because we both understand and know
that we've been through much together as friends.
One statement i could never get over with:

8 years of friendship, and we never fought. not once.

And that fact was an echo in my mind the entire time
and i just want to say "awesomely amazing".
Thank you, for putting trust in me, and knowing that i could excel
in just anything i want. Thank you, for being there when i thought i was broken
and assuring me that everything would be all right. Seeming as though it's just fantasy.
Thank you, for respecting me, and for all the things you told me - about your love,
your lust and most of all, what hurts you most.
To be able to tell me your secrets, makes me feel important, that i'm worth your trust.
Please know, that there will always be someone who wants to help you.
I do, and you know how to reach me-you've got my number and address/email.
You know i'm always reachable. Please remember to strive for the best, whether in
studies or relationships. And please dont rush things through. You can call me.

I'm there.

And it's such a big honour, to have a fabulous friend like you.
Tell you the truth, i almost wanted to cry on sunday.HAHAHA.

It's not the last but before i end off, this is the one thing you need to know.

I will never forget you.

And we both know that never, is an awfully long time.

I'll miss you, lovely.
Mira.

2006-11-27T22:22:00.000-08:00

MUSICAL EVENING!

the epitome of high, laughter and insanity.

2006-11-19T01:30:00.000-08:00

shush i'm declaring!herm herm.

i declare this weekend the best weekend of 2006/
Family weekend. Saturday we went eating in this place
where i got addicted to this chicken dish and thus had to wake up
at 3 in the morning to use the toilet after that. While
sis got herself a seriously ugly dress for prom,
i went home with dad and co. and read 'If You Could See Me Now'.
I love love it, okay!! It's sad and inspiring. So inspiring i feel like doing
insane stuffs. For example;

Before i go to sleep at night i'll go singing and dancing openly
in front of my mirror till around one. And i'll usually hide
behind the night curtain in case i spot someone walking by.
If not, i think people are peeking behind their curtains shocked
to see me dancing and singing my heart out.

xD

Today, we went out again as a family; there were a number of firsts.
Today, I first climbed a tree and attempted to read on it but failed.
Today, I first walked down the aisles of an art gallery. Inspiring. Love.
Today, I first saw the biggest fish in my life. Roughly the length of me.

Art gallery, omg. So so so so beautiful. And my father's pestering
me to start on a new project - painting. He said he's going to buy me
an canvas and paints and brush and let me start on my work.
And it just hits me on knowing how supportive my father could get
knowing that i had some ability to produce something pleasant with
my own hands.

There were a lot of reminiscence going on today.
In Tanglin mall, i distinctly got knocked back by the memory of
Hanna and i exploring the mall by what was visible when you
walked down the main lanes. Didn't really explored much.
That was one of my first visits to Tanglin mall.
Our car passed the route i walked to school everyday.
It just pains me to know that i only had 2 more years to
trample my feet on that ugly ground that held so much
memories of us walking in the rain, of us joking like mad idiots,
feeling exhausted with the world after school, talking about
everything under the sun and sharing silent moments when
we're in our seperate worlds.That stupide route's so wonderful.

These things make me want to do more, like eating more,
drinking more, complementing more, criticise more, fight
jokingly more, and most important of all, laugh more.

I'm going to do it.
Pictures uploaded next time (:

2006-11-17T20:29:00.000-08:00

i've made my decision.

I DON'T EVER WANT 2007 TO COME.

i'm unwilling to let go of what i've been holding on to
and what i've been cherishing for all this time.
plus i hate myself for getting irritated at g1 some times.
Now it's clear to me that, inspite of some people,

2g1's the best class anyone could've ask for.
The very best. That makes me love it best.

2g1 is forever love. forever.

2006-11-17T08:11:00.000-08:00

Xuan's elated, elated that you-know-what.
I guess I am too. We're saying the same thing.

We don't need it anymore.
This is the perfect moment where i put my foot down.
Spotlights, please! *million dollar smile*

Dedications! :
Khaliesah, my treat for the ice cream, for helping me
in my rough times and believing me as well as in me.
Paddy, I miss our beautiful gorgeous! And i bet
they're still hot in whatever adidas pants they're wearing.
WHOO. *fans self.
Haslinda and Hanna, though not readin this, I think i'm going
to be closest to you both as in malay friends. Set your timer every
class so that you wont be late for our study group.
Countdown every minute till you meet me agin eh eh eh?
LOVE!
And nikki, who's oblivious to this blog too, hope she learns
not to get affected by this you-know-what. i'm sorry she
got included. Come to me for heart-to-heart talks!
And print out the leaflets for my M.K.E. fanclub(:

Paddy got chased by a bee!
2007. bring it on.

2006-11-16T23:22:00.000-08:00

HAHAH! my ninth blog, up!
It's still a wonder how i can still keep up with the number of blogs.
Went to school this morning to find out my post results
And yes, my first choice,

3C3

Sad thing is that i'm the only one taking mt/hmt
in that class and the first thing that came into my mind
was "SHOOT how am i suppose to improve hmt now?"
So i'll be talking english the whole time until i meet
hanna and haslinda after school to study.
After thinking that has, paddy and i would end up together
in the same class, here comes hanna to take my place.

I bet she's smiling to herself,

if she ever found out about this blog.
CURSE YOU HANNA.
then you'll star in pirate of the caribbean
movie number one. you and your black pearl.

But i guess im contented (:
we're still learning the same things anyway.
i'm okay with that...

CURSE YOU HANNA.
tubby agrees.

but the brakes dont stop anymore.